Friday, July 10, 2009

MY WIP


It has been awhile since I have picked up knitting needles..My first blog(locqueenknits2) chronicled my knitting adventures. I use to be totally engrossed in all things fiber...my yarn stash is sick,lol...I got into dyeing my own yarn,felting,knitting dog sweaters,crocheting metal wire into jewelry...lately I'm feeling a magnetic pull toward wanting to make things again..so first up a simple scarf using Koigu yarn knit with size 3 needles...I'm using about 10 different skeins of yarn alternating every few rows...it is a riot of color!...when I finish this
..next up may be this
oversized knitted cowl..talk about drama....

Monday, June 29, 2009

Trying on...




In going from being morbidly obese to not morbidly obese..does a number on one's closet,lol...I have been going through my wardrobe..editing..getting rid of the size26-28's...but for some reason I cant seem to part with the size 22 pants,lol..I feel kinda of ashamed to admit that I will still throw them on and be seen outside my house....the HORROR!..I know they are loose..and deep down I know that they are not flattering...so why not get rid of them...A curvy girl like myself will never be able to rock slouchy pants period!...but why do I gravitate to wanting to rock those styles?..could it be I'm trying to hide my body?...when ever I put on something fitted the response is usually WOW look at you!...but then what do I do I immediately look in the mirror and mentally and sometime verbally go over what I perceive as my shortcomings...How does one let the fat images of one's self go? It's very complicated...I bought this dress over the weekend..totally torn in the fitting room as to whether to buy it or not..so I bought it thinking I needed to see it on at home..accessorized..or as Carrie Bradshaw would say merchandise it up!..It's growing on me..but I'm just wondering if I will ever wear it out of the house...

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Heartbroken

I'm not ashamed to admit that I love Michael Jackson..even through the craziness..I loved him...My sweetie has had to put up with my playing Michael's music constantly.....His music is on just about every cd I have ever burned..REALLY!...I hear his voice every single day!...I workout to his music when I do cardio outside....his music is ALL over my ipod...My sweetie has asked me...don't you ever get tired of listening to MJ...my answer is and will always be NO..I will never tire of listening to his music...

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

WhooHoo!



Today I tried on a skirt I bought from Anthropologie years ago..it still has the tags attached,lol..I have never been able to wear it, it was one of those aspirational purchases,lol..It is a size 12..I could only manage to slip it on halfway up my thighs,lol..Now it slips effortlessly on...it has 4 buttons on the waist and I can button 3..so I'm almost there,lol...you have to celebrate these moments to keep vested in the process,lol...now..you wont find me trying to slip on a size 12 pair of slacks,lol..not trying to get my feelings crushed..but I'm on my way!

Monday, June 22, 2009

Live Wrap



Here in Portland there are a couple of places where you can sit down and have RAW/Live options on the menu...Blossoming Lotus is where I ordered the live wrap and it was amazing..their version had cashew hummus and cashew sour cream...my version has sun dried tomato and zucchini hummus with cashew sour cream(I added fresh chives and parsley)...the wrap is a collard green leaf..the filling is sprouts,cucumber.carrots,avocado,banana peppers....This will become a staple in my menu planning maybe served along with a bowl of soup...you can really experiment with the fillings..I would love to know what types of fillings you add!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Noticing...


The miracles of eating LIVE food is making significant improvements in my daily life. First up weight release..I found I was holding on the weight release front the scale was refusing to move,nothing,nada,zilch,lol...I believe that even though I had a tight reign on the calories consumed and yall know a sista works out on a consistent basis..the scale was not being nice to me...it actually started to creep in the upward direction...the HORROR of it all...but you know what I didn't trip(well not much,lol) I continued to move my ass and break a sweat 5-6 days a week...As what was stated in a previous post I decided to go with what I know...and that is to have a diet consisting of the MAJORITY of RAW and Living foods...and looky here,looky here..the weight release has resumed and the inches are melting off...I'm not hungry,I'm not obsessing over food,food is not my every thought. And just as important as the weight release is that my dermatisis condition on the palm of my right hand has disappeared without having to use a steroid creme...my knees..which I have had surgery on and now have arthritis in are virtually painfree...I was starting to feel pain when I climbed stairs...AMAZING....my skin in flawless,no need for foundation...I feel a complete lightness as I move about my day..I can cross both my legs effortlessly...I no longer crave junk food...I love spending money on organic watermelon,cherries,melons,etc. You know when you come across something that's soooo great and you want to shout it from the rooftops to let everyone know..well this is it!!..I want to extend an invitation to any one that wants to be part of my Eat LIve/Move more support group I'm starting(holla at ur girl)...the purpose is not to eat 100% but an gentle transition from addiction to not so healthy food to eating more vibrant foods..and of course exercise(move your ass)..no pressure..but let's gently chip away at all the excuses we tell ourselves about why we cant live a healthy vibrant life...while breaking a sweat and every now and again..and yeah I know some of you are thinking "what about my hair"..I say to that "what about your ass,lol"..just a little gentle coaching...yeah right,lol

Monday, June 15, 2009

Collard Greens..




I originally found this recipe in "The Complete Book of Raw Food" by Lori Baird...The recipe is entitled Miss Lill's Down Home Marinated Collard greens..I have tweaked the recipe so that is the one I will post
I used
1bunch of Collards
Flax oil to coat(you could use olive oil)
1tps of garlic powder
1tsp of onion powder
(I sometimes add some chopped onion)
1 minced garlic clove
a pinch of red pepper flakes
1tps of chili powder
1tsp of cajun seasoning
squeeze 1/2 a lemon
1tsp of cayenne pepper

wash and pull out center stem of greens...roll them up and slice or you could tear them apart..place in a large bowl...massage all the ingredients into the greens..I place them in a big freezer bag and let marinate for 1-2 days
when I'm ready to eat them I take them and place them in a bowl covered with plastic wrap and I place it in the dehydrator to gently warm up and further soften or ypu could simply let them come to room temperture

I like to add chopped up tomato that has been lightly sprinkled with salt
Feel free to play around with the spices!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Teriyaki Noodles





I used my spirooli to spiralized some zucchini into noodles then I whipped up this teriyaki sauce..a recipe from Kristen Suzanne of Kristen's Raw blog...I did alter the recipe...I didn't have all the ingredients so I used cold pressed sesame oil, and I substituted red wine vinegar for red wine, and I didn't have any hemp seeds...I added a garlic clove and red pepper flakes...and I garnished with some chives from our herb pots..It is sooo good a definite must make,lol..so you see eating RAW /living foods is not just about the salads!

Here is the original recipe
3 tablespoons hemp oil
2 tablespoons red wine
2 teaspoons tamari
2 tablespoons miso
2 tablespoons raw agave nectar
1 tablespoon fresh ginger, grated
1/4 cup hemp seeds, divided
5 zucchini
2 red bell peppers, seeded and minced



What You Do:

1. In a small bowl, whisk together hemp oil, wine, tamari, miso, agave nectar, and ginger until well-blended. Stir in 2 tablespoons hemp seeds.

2. Using a Japanese spiralizer or vegetable peeler, make fettuccini-style noodles out of the zucchini. In a large bowl, add noodles and red pepper, pour on dressing, and toss gently. Sprinkle on remaining 2 tablespoons hemp seeds and serve.




By the Way...it's working...what's working...eating Raw vegan! lol...look at that waistline!



BEFORE

Saturday, June 06, 2009

wake up call



When I first spotted this image above I felt very sad.. almost teary looking at it...I could not stop staring at this women...I found myself dissecting the photo..I wondered what she was feeling...I wondered how long did it take her to get ready to go out..I wondered did she put so much effort into her hair to deflect what was going on with her body...I wondered if she thought she was sexy..I wondered does she have high self-esteem...I wondered does she really think she is the shit!...I wondered if she has chosen to celebrate her fat...when I look at this women I see my pain..pain suffered in the past and some pain now present in my smaller body...now have no doubt when I look in the mirror I dont see 300 plus pounds...but looking at her photo I kinda get the impression that maybe she doesnt either..I remember having bouts of thinking that I may be morbidly obese but at least I know how to dress..I have fashion sense,lol damnit!...I have rules..never sleeveless,nothing tight,nothing too short,nothing to sloppy! I was kidding myself...moving through your everyday life in an outsize body is not comfortable PERIOD no matter what you wrap it in...we lie to ourselves... "Skinny bitches are evil" remember this was Moniques's battle cry... she now losing weight I might add.."only dogs prefer bones men like a woman with some meat on her bones"..etc,etc...when you see morbidly obese people you are looking at a lot of pain...it's not just the love of food..there is an healthy sized person suffocating inside...screaming to get out and in my case clawing my insides to get out...I feel soooo blessed to be working so hard to free her...if she is listening right now I want you to know that I'm coming for you baby! you will emerge a strong,healthy vibrant woman who will no longer seek comfort in food...you will no longer avoid moving your body..you will no longer make excuses for not truly living...no more hiding from life...I will respect you by not feeding you processed food...I will feed you healthy living food because I now realize that is what makes you so very happy!..I'm listening to your incessant chatter...get up and move your ass!...please dont even think about feeding me that shit..I hear you shouting I LOVE YOU..Please LOVE me back!...and If you continue to love me I will make sure that you will be able to fit comfortably in an airline seat,I will make sure that you can shop in any store you please,I will make sure that even when it's hot outside you will still be comfortable and not turn into an evil bitch..I got you girl!....just set me free once and for all!

Monday, June 01, 2009

AMAZING!!!!!



San Diego, CA (BlackNews.com) - Professional trainer Wendy Ida was the winner of three top trophies in the 2009 NPC San Diego Bodybuilding, Figure and Bikini Championship on March 21, 2009. Ida won a First Place Gold Medal in the Women 45-plus category, Second Place in the Women, 35-plus category, and Second Place in the Women, Unlimited category.

Known as the "Fitness Warrior," Wendy Ida is the owner of Wendy Ida Fitness in Los Angeles, CA. Ida is a Nationally Certified Master Trainer and a nutrition specialist who specializes in helping women over age 40 to achieve fitness results. She had never competed in a bodybuilding event before the NPC San Diego Championship.

Ida, who just turned 57 on May 3, 2009, did not begin her own fitness training until after age 40. When her passion for fitness transformed her body, career and life, she thought it only natural to take her skills to the next level and help other women to achieve their own health and fitness goals.

"Working out is my cup of coffee in the morning, "says Wendy Ida. "I love how it makes my body smile. But my greatest reward is seeing how I inspire others to step up their game. It's a wonderful thing to see how the power of fitness can set you free."

Ida is the author of the upcoming book, Take Back Your Life: Wendy Ida's 'No Nonsense' Approach to Health, Fitness and Looking Good Naked! Her book is endorsed by Cindy Popp, Producer and Director of CBS' Bold & the Beautiful; Actress/Recording Artist, Eloise Laws; Professor Sidney E. Morse, Publisher, In the Black California Magazine; Tina Treadwell, Entertainment Producer & President of Treadwell Entertainment; Rickey Ivie, Esq., Ivie, McNeill & Wyatt and others.

Wendy Ida is nationally certified by ACE (American Council on Exercise) and NCEP (National College for Exercise Professionals). For two seasons, Ida was the assistant Strength and Conditioning coach for the LA Avengers football team.

The National Physique Committee (NPC) is a top organization for amateur bodybuilders in the United States.

To get 10 Free Tips from Take Back Your Life: Wendy Ida's 'No Nonsense' Approach to Health, Fitness and Looking Good Naked!, visit http://wendyida.com/text-news.html

A friend of mine sent this this to me....I love reading about women who start working out later in life and are able to have amazing bodies...now I do realize that everyones "amazing" will be different,lol...but to think that YOU have the power to transform your body if you are willing to put in the work....and it is work!..so many of us give up because the results aren't coming fast enough...now to be honest I get discouraged but I dont quit...today for example I woke up and didn't feel like working out..but I drank my protein smoothie and put on my workout clothes and did it! PERIOD...I often ask myself what is the alternative...to not workout?...to go back to eating loads of crap?..to having no energy?...at some point we all have to ask ourselves "what kind of old person do I want to be?"...do I want to walk with a cane?do I want to have someone help me out of a chair? do I want to be all achy from not moving my body?...I post these examples hoping that they will inspire you to move your body and as my favorite t-shirt says"EAT like you give a Damn"....the choice is yours....

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Raw ice cream!



I found this RAW ice cream recipe on Heathy's Blog


I have to say it is really good,I did tweak it a bit by adding some freshly grated nutmeg and a pinch of cinnamon...I think it would be fabulous with a blueberry sauce!...In Matthew Kinney's book Everyday Raw he has a recipe to make ice cream cones,I think I will add that to my must make list!

(link says blog doesn't exist but just click on it and it will take you to it :) )

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Live Food







Since returning to eating Live food I have found myself reading more Raw food blogs,and pulling all of my Raw books off the shelf looking for recipes to make..it's very exciting to see all the possibilities of food to create. I love to prepare food. I love all my great knives(Shun).I love my Le Creuset pots. I love all my gadgets(I worked for Sur LA Table at on point). I love my cookbooks. I don't want to give up the pleasures of making great dishes and serving to friends and family. Basically I have come to realize I'm a "HYPE MAN"(u know that performer that comes on before the real star takes the stage) lol I get folks excited to eat my creations. I find that with this cycle of eating Living food,I want to eat simply. I don't want to consume to many nuts. I want to eat an obscene amount of green veggies,lol...I pulled my dehydrator out and the first item to go in almond pulp,lol...which is the remains left over after you make almond milk....I dehydrate it then store it in the freezer until I amass a good amount...then you could make cookies,crackers,cakes after grinding it into flour(use a coffee grinder)...Today I ate sweet and sour marinated veggies..they turned out amazing! with faux sesame chicken(it taste nothing like chicken,lol) but it is tasty none the less..I tossed the veggies in the sauce then put in dehydrator for several hours and they came out looking just like cooked!...but with all the enzymes intact!

The recipe can be found here
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Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Life Changing!

I'm reading this book called Food Inc..it is changing my life for real!..I will never look at food the same way again! If you are interested in the story behind what ends up on your dinner plate it is a MUST read...the documentary will open next month. Check out the book Here

Check out the documentary Here

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Don't Call it a Comeback!

I have returned to eating RAW...somedays 100%..others RAW until dinner then I will have a vegan meal. I have to say that I have been experimenting with my diet to see what works best and more importantly what FEELS best. I can now say with 100% certainity that eating RAW is it...personally I don't feel that I have to be 100% all the time to be healthy as long as the cooked foods that I include in my diet are natural and wholesome I think then its all good. You may ask how did I come to this conclusion....I joined weight watchers a few weeks ago and I have released some additional weight...at the expense of feeling fabulous. I found myself purchasing processed snacks(i.e 100 calorie packs treats and weight watchers snacks) because as long as I stayed within my points it was all good right?...wrong..yeah I got results because of the old calories in calories out....but I felt clogged up,low energy and just all round whack. As you all know once you know better you do better and I KNOW how I felt eating RAW...so it was a no brainer to return to eating a diet that is mostly RAW. Having done 100 day 100% RAW last year I knew how fabulous I felt then...so you go with what you know...there is no denying incorporating fresh fruits and veggies into your diet will have you vibrating all over the place! It's funny that when I did the challenge I was all about making the gourmet meals...now not so much...I find myself wanting to eat much more simply almost to the point of eating mono meals like 1/2 a watermelon or a bag of cherries and of salads. I'm still doing Weight Watchers(I prepaid with coupons from my insurance company) and I'm sort of counting points...and what I'm finding is it's hard to eat all my points because it's difficult to overeat fruits and veggies to the point where you will run out of points,lol....but I will work it out and keep you all informed. I have purchased some new RAW food books so stay tuned for pictures of healthy creations!! Now my diet consist of a morning smoothie made with fresh Almond milk,1 frozen banana,1 cup of berries,a squirt of agave nectar,2tbs of hemp protein powder then I workout,and afterwards I make a blender full(5 cups) of green smoothie(kale,spinach,dandelion,apple,berries(sometimes peaches or pineapple) a squirt of agave nectar,and 4cups of water blend in my Blendtec high powered blender,later I snack on fruit,then dinner is vegan,recently I smoked some tofu in a stovetop smoker (that I scored for 10$) then I baked it with BBQ sauce and served it with sauteed swiss chard garlic,onions,red peppers...I look forward to sharing this culinary journey with you!

Thursday, May 07, 2009

and she creeps...

I'm still plugging away on the weight release front..It feels like nothing is happening,which is rather frustrating. It's hard to objective with ones self..I try on clothes to gauge where I am...I guess things feel looser,lol..I have lost another inch off of my waist and bust. I tell myself to focus on the positives...I Am stronger for sure..I'm lifting some pretty heavy weights...My energy is up..I find myself wanting to be active...I'm very conscious of my diet(just joined Weight watchers,my insurance offered a coupon,so I thought "what da hell"))...we had family visiting so we ate out a lot last week..and I would say 95% of the time I stayed on point...I made an effort to get all my exercise in and I did!..even if that meant getting up earlier to get it done...so I can see the shift in my mindset...but let's keep it real I wanna see chunks of weight falling off!!...I know that I must focus on consistent good habits and that I will reach my goal weight...but damn...I wish I could see drastic change when I look in the mirror...I guess for now I will have to be content with feeling my emerging biceps and the slow demise of the muffin top...




I love how I look smaller in this one..it was some kinda unintentional trick photography,lol

Monday, April 20, 2009

A little rusty...

What can I say about my love of rusty things,lol...while out shopping with a friend visiting from Alaska..we walked into a thrift store and I spotted this..



It's a Clam digger,lol...and I thought this would be great to hang my necklaces on...I have to admit that I didn't know what it was...but it was half off,lol....so when we left the store and walked a bit..went into another store to buy some incense,the first thing the owner says is"where did you get that clam digger"...lol...so my love of all things rusty continues..remember the Railroad thingy we purchased in seattle...

I think it adds a nice bit of texture to our mostly white interior....stay tuned for more pictures of our eclectic buys!


Naptress

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Cheap Thrills!

Isn't it funny that when you are trying not to spend money you come across amazing deals,lol case in point this shirt


This shirt was 10.00 on the clearance rack. It doesn't quite fit yet because I can't zip it up all the way on the side,lol...but I'm close..when you are releasing weight I feel it is important to have clothes you aspire to wear,lol and if it's a cheap find all the better!

Next this dress that I found for 12.00 on the clearance rack,I think it's the perfect summer dress,lately I have been wearing it with jeans underneath,but this summer I will wear it with some cute flats.



..I also found a Michael Kors belt on clearance that remind me of the Azzedine Alaia belt Michelle Obama wears


....I love when I can find items to add to my wardrobe that I know will become staples...for cheap!

I have been thinking about having an on going "sale" of some items that I have never worn,or barely wore for sale,some are designer..all are plus size so if you are interested or know of some groovy plus size ladies feel free to send them my way!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

If she can do it......

Simply inspirational....PERIOD!...read at your own risk....reading this piece might result in you putting on your workout gear and working up a sweat...how can u not?





By Ericka Blount Danois | Special to The Sun

February 3, 2008


On this rainy day, only the resolute are in Energy Fitness Center on Liberty Road in Randallstown , getting in their evening workout.

In the corner of the gym, Ernestine Shepherd is quietly training a petite client, Cynthia Evans, who weighs 110 pounds and is 4 foot 11 inches tall. They are working on their rear delts, lifting 5-pound weights and stretching their arms into a "T" before they move on to the 30-poundweights.

It would all seem pretty dreary -- the rain, the routine of weightlifting -- if it weren't for the fact that Shepherd, at age 71, is so dazzling to watch. Wearing red sweat pants, a red-and-white sports bra and a baseball cap that reads, "Determined, dedicated, disciplined to be fit," she is a unique figure in the world of fitness.

Shepherd's attitude lends credence to the adage "age ain't nothing but a number." Five days a week, she trains women of all ages -- three days at Energy gym and two days at her church, Union Memorial United Methodist Church , 2500 Harlem Ave. , where she has a class of 25.

· ERNESTINE SHEPHERD
Age: 71

Profession: Certified personal trainer and retired school secretary at City Springs School in South Baltimore .

Training grub: She drinks 16 ounces of water and eats a light snack that includes a bagel with peanut butter or two hard-boiled eggs before starting her workout.

On the run: SusanG. Komen Breast Cancer, Turkey Trot, Women's Classic in Baltimore, Resolution Run at Patterson Park, Race for the Kids, the Dreaded Druid Hills at Druid Hill Park, Baltimore Marathon.

Other acclaim: Has appeared in Essence (1991 and 2003); The Baltimore Times (2002); and the book Self Seduction, Ultimate Path to Inner and Outer Beauty (2003); has appeared on The View (2001); in a Carmax commercial (2004); and in the Miss America Senior Pageant (2004). She models for Nova Models in Baltimore .

Status: Married to Collin Shepherd, 77, for 52 years. They have a son and a grandson.

What her husband says: "She is a very determined person and she is not only in this for herself, she is interested in helping other people, including myself," he says. "We exercise at home. She is an inspiration tome; sometimes I get lazy, but she gets on me. I learned you are never too old to exercise."

"I usually start off with about 15 minutes of cardio, running in place, then we do floor exercises working on the abs, legs, upper and lower obliques, and then we proceed with the weights," she says about her training sessions that last about an hour. Wendy Barry, 38, started training with Shepherd six months ago. After her weight went up to 241 pounds, she started working with a nutritionist and lost 50 pounds.

When she started working with Shepherd, she lost another 20 pounds and traded her size 22 dress for a size 8. Some days she walks 10 miles with Shepherd before she goes to work at the Department of Social Services in Baltimore .

With 10 percent body fat, Shepherd is 5-foot-5 and about 130 pounds of inspiration to her clients, many of whom she includes in her routine of walking or running, which begins at 4 a.m. at Druid Hill Park.

Sharron Woods, 60, and her mother, 85-year-old Eva Miller, attend Shepherd's Saturday class at the church. Both are former body builders who have successfully competed in weightlifting competitions.

When Miller was 70, at 5 feet 3 inches tall and 150 pounds, she could bench press 175 pounds. So she and her daughter were skeptical when they began Shepherd's first class and were instructed to run in place.

"I looked at my mother and said, 'This is not going to get it; we are used to vigorous exercise,' " Woods says. "Well, then she pulled out some exercises I had never seen. Before we left, I was begging for more."

Some of the exercises, Woods recalls, included trunk twists while holding a pole-- right, and then left, before going down and doing squats still holding the pole.

Still, Woods wasn't convinced. When Shepherd asked her to run with her in the morning, her first thought was, "She's 70, I can keep up with her." "That woman was a road runner!" remembers Woods. "I am really energized working out with her."

Her mother was equally humbled: "She didn't go easy on me because of my age," says Miller, who works part time as a teacher's aide in the Baltimore school system. "She works me just like she works everybody else."

Indeed, she even works hard enough that her former trainer, Raymond Day, can't keep up with her.

Though he runs with her some mornings, he is reluctant to take her up on offers to participate in the marathons she runs in. In addition to her regular workout routine and training others, Shepherd has participated in numerous 5K and 10K races and marathons.

But Shepherd hasn't always had a focus on fitness in her life In fact, in her younger days she was a "prissy" girl, with little athletic interests.

It wasn't until she turned 56 that she began to exercise with the aid of her sister.

They were both spurred on to join a gym after shopping for bathing suits and not liking what they saw in the mirror.

Day trained them both at a gym on U.S. 40 and remembers that Shepherd was in good shape, but had a lot of body fat and didn't know how to lift weights. Her sister, a year older, acclimated her body quickly to the routines.

Then one day in 1992, her sister came into the gym complaining of a ringing in her ears. "A few days later, she passed away," remembers Day. "She had a brain aneurysm that burst in her head. They were really close, they did everything together." "When she died, I said I didn't want to do anything," says Shepherd, a retired Baltimore schools secretary. "A friend of mine said, 'You know your sister wouldn't want you to do that.' "

Day says that when she decided to come back to the gym, she came back with a new vigor and dedication. Before long, people would compliment her on how she looked. "She was the most dedicated person I have ever trained," says Day, who worked with her for 15 years.

Nowadays, she works with nutritionist Todd Swinney. She keeps busy by modeling in magazines and commercials and recently participated in the Senior Miss America pageant in Baltimore .

But mostly she inspires others.

"She is a people person," says Woods. "She is constantly asking, 'How do you feel about this? Are you feeling OK?' Most people just follow a routine and they don't pay attention to how you feel. With Ernestine, every day is different.

"So that means, it not only keeps you thinking, it keeps your body thinking and challenges your body," she says. Miller agrees.

"She is amazing," she says. "I don't think I'll ever look like that, but I am working on it!"

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

What I'm digging!


To take a break from all the weight loss talk I thought I would do a post on some things I'm digging...first up my new Puma sneakers..they are gold and fabulous!...I have an unnatural fondness for a metallic shoe,I will rock it as a neutral...I'm a diehard PUMA girl,the only recreational sneaker that I will rock!


next... this silhouette...I have decided that I need to embrace my waistline,I have one so I need to accentuate it!..and this makes me feel all ladylike!..I love everything about this look!


and a lil something we picked up in Seattle..an old Railroad thingy lol,it has no purpose other than to sit on our white cabinet looking all hardcore...I love it's rusted steel hardness!

and last but not least yellow flowers...I dont know what's up with me and yellow flowers...but I keep buying them...they make my smile...

and last but not least,my new sista friends on Twitter...ymib,quejimenez,aquarianthought...we are getting creative together!!

Friday, March 13, 2009

What I see...


First I want i thank you all for the wonderful comments you left in response to my last post!..I feel sooo encouraged on this journey that will never end...Now it is time for full disclosure...when I look in the mirror the majority of the time I dont see the progress,I have flashes,moments of feeling like wow I have released 50 pounds!!..but most of the time I feel overwhelmed that I have so far to go..it's like two steps forward and five steps back,I'm like Yeah! I can wear some tops(knit) and belts of my sweetie(size10)...but I cant imagine that I will ever get my ass in size 10 pants(baby has junk in her trunk)...I'm feeling very scattered about my body...at times I feel blessed to be bottom heavy..as it is suppose to be healthier than having abdominal fat..but at this point in my journey I'm feeling my body is very exaggerated...I use to wear lots of loose fitting clothes,now those look awful,I put on fitted clothes now and I feel that it hugs too much...I may need theraphy,lol....a few years ago I was really into yoga big time ,going to class 3-4 days a week..I remember going to a morning class where I was the only one and feeling terrified that all the attention was going to be focused on me...but I stayed anyway...and had the most amazing moment with my teacher(male) he had me complete a move that I thought I was to fat to do(shoulder stand)..I remember saying something about wanting to maybe go for yoga instructor training when I lost weight..and he looked me in the eye and said your are perfect right now in the body you are in...it makes me tear up just to recount this,because at that moment I felt it...yeah I was this flexible overweight girl who did yoga,who immersed herself in yoga teaching,but who was caught up in the mental mind fuck of what society says is acceptable...I want get to that place and stay..I want to look in the mirror and Love what I see to the core of my being and not just pay lip service...I am a work in progress...slowly I'm chipping away at the fat bullshit that has encased me....

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Biggest Loser in the making...



Readers to my blog know that i have been on a quest to finally release excess weight from my body,so far I have lost over 50 pounds and a whole lot of inches from my 5'10 inch frame...I can't believe I'm about to do this ...but I'm going to post my before(size 26/28,waist size was 50") pic as well as my Now pic(I'm sporting my new Ralph Lauren size 16 jacket! waist size is 36)...I was going to wait til I got to my goal...but I decided that I should celebrate the NOW....I'm at the halfway point and sometime I feel discourage that I still have a ways to go...but seeing the photos side by side I can appreciate how far I have come...the weight is not falling off...I'm slowly chipping away and sculpting my body. I am soooo much stronger and I can feel as well as see muscles forming. My goal is to lose 50 more by my birthday which is November 11...I can do it..I will do it...there I said it...now it's up to me to make it happen!...any encouraging remarks will be greatly appreciated!!!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Stitched




I was feeling like being a bit creative ...so I made this runner for our table...out of felt squares that I cut apart and pieced back together. I love how it adds a bit of brightness to our space. I'm getting clearer on my design aesthetic...I will state for the record that I love all white interiors,white walls,white floors...I have tried to embrace paint color on the walls,lol...but I always return to white...sometimes I think about people who rent and arent allowed to paint,we own and can do anything we want...and I want is all white,lol! ..we do have a couple of feature walls that are painted,but just between you and me,I want to paint them back white,lol(maybe when sweetie goes out of town for business I will get busy with a brush,lol)...we recently added a row of Ikea cabinets that I think look rather sleek and have definetly brighten up the dining room,plus if gives me a stretch of counter space to make little vignettes...I will be documenting the upcoming changes to that area...I can see putting big floral arrangements,propping art work or even embracing the sleek minimal thing ....stay tuned...on the horizon... felted window treatments...

ps..I know the pic of the bar makes us look like serious drinkers...we aren't really....sweetie just seems to like the idea of a bar,lol...check out her blog http://muddlemethis.blogspot.com...it has like 3 recipes on it...enough said,lol

Monday, January 26, 2009

MY Muscles vs MY Fat

I have to admit I'm obsessed with the scale ...I weigh myself every single day!..I know weight loss professionals say that when you are on a quest to release weight that is a big no-no. Here's my reason for doing it...I feel that it keeps me in check and holds me accountable on a daily basis for the food choices that I make. I realize that muscle weighs more than fat,and that when folks look at you they don't know how much you weigh,they only see how you look in your clothes,lol... even knowing that I want the scale to continue to move DOWN. A few weeks ago I started doing ChaLean Extreme,which is a program where you lift heavy weights slowly to fatique,before starting that program I was doing the cardio heavy Turbo Jam and virtually no weights...my weight loss has slowed to geriatric crawl,lol but my clothes are falling off of me...today I was doing jumping jacks and my knit workout pants fell down around my ankles,lol..it was a good thing that I was working out at home!!...now when's the last time you have experienced KNIT pants falling down,lol...I was like whoaaaa...something is happening that is not registering on the scale. To be perfectly honest when I get on the scale I do feel disappointed that the number is not moving,but I now don't let that send me into a downward talespin of overeating and making bad food choices...I consciously decide to stay the course...to continue to lift weights and do cardio and make healthy food choices. I have upped my green smoothie consumption,and have added hemp protein to my food plan. I wish that there was a RAW foodist out there who's an expert on the proper nutrition and weight loss while gaining muscle(if anyone knows of someone,hook a sista up with the info)...it's a tricky thing...I personally believe that many raw foodist lose some muscle mass when they lose weight..this is just my opinion when I look at before and after photos...I'm not naming any names,lol...I just want to consciously set myself up for continued success...because yo-yoing is so old school!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

chocolate!




Lately I have been wondering what the hell happened to my sweet tooth...pre-RAW I would always say that sweets were my weakness,but since I have been eating RAW...it appears to be missing in action,lol...you see I will make sweet RAW desserts that are delicious,but then I would only eat a small amount then freeze the rest...Yall I still have pumpkin pie from Thanksgiving in the freezer,lol...anyway today I decided to attempt making RAW chocolate again..they turned out fine last time but this time honey they turned out great...the flavor and texture were right on...my sweetie ask me if I was going to sell them,lol...we will see :)
the flavors I made were...Chocolate MInt,Chocolate with Cayenne pepper,and Chocolate with Cashews and Raisins sprinkled with Fleur de sel salt...uh huh I may be on to something,lol

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Kinda mIxin' it up

Since completing my 100 days all Raw diet I have allowed a small amount of cooked vegan foods back into my diet(soup and a cold soba noodle salad) I haven't really suffered any adverse effects. I feel very strongly that I want to continue to eat 100% raw most of the time and when I decide to partake in non-raw vegan foods I will only eat that which is super healthy! I'm adament on not allowing heavily processed foods back into my diet!...otherwise what would have been the point in going through this challenge...I can see that my palate has been reset to appreciate healthy food!...here's a great example...before doing this challenge I use to love to chew extra gum to control my appetite...I tried a piece the other day it tasted awful, I had to spit it out! I think it is still important for me to continue to keep my kitchen stocked with Raw goodness...check out these Falafel wraps I made..the recipe is from Russell James of the rawchefblog....

Thursday, January 01, 2009

A New U Year!


Today I started doing ChaLean Extreme...this workout is amazing...I'm looking forward to losing fat and sculpting some muscle...with this system...you lift heavy weights with fewer repetitons...so I went out and purchased some extra plates(weights)...all I can say is wow!!!...I love that the workouts aren't extremely long... you get in and get out,lol...I'm actually looking forward to feeling that muscle soreness...because I know that when it starts to burn you are changing your body!... On the food front...I have completed my 100 days ALL Raw project(lost about 50 pounds) ...I have decided to stay 100% raw most of the time...I have decided that I don't want to be a RAW fanantic...dont get me wrong I feel amazing and have no desire to go back to eating white,sugar,white flour,processed foods...but I figure some vegan soups(that I make),steamed veggies now and again wont kill me,lol...I will rethink this if I notice any negative effects,lol(like weight gain,lol)...I have added Hemp protein powder smoothies now that I lifting weights...I may need to revisit Brendan Frazier's book "Thrive"...to see how I can get the most out of my workouts and Raw food..

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Chili..Oh YEa!!


I made the chili recipe that is Matthew Kinney's book Everyday RAW...it is seriously good!!...period...a must make!...the flavors are that of cooked chili....it really looks like it's cooked!...I put it in a bowl and then I place the bowl in a big plastic baggie(that I reuse and reuse..lol) then a put it in the dehydrator for hours...usually I put in the morning and its so nice and warm when I'm ready to it eat it...Matthew serves it with crackers,sour cream,guacamole and salsa fresca....I just ate it in a bowl...but i can see that it would make a wonderful Nacho plate!...check it out!!!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Happy Holidays!!


Wishing everyone a Healthy and Happy Holiday!!...check out our dollar store wreath that I pimped out with some dollar store ribbon,lol..it's kinda trashy...but I like it...silver wreath...gold tree...we are having a bling,bling Holiday

Monday, December 22, 2008

HOMAGE...and some other stuff...









I didnt think that I would miss being a loctitian so much...I dont think its so much about the hair that I miss but my wonderful clients. I now realize what a blessing it was to have a space where I was challenged to be creative every time I put my hands in someones hair....my clients never dictated they simply let me do what I wanted...I would simply ask up or down,wild or contained?....so here is a little sampling of my former world....peace and nappiness yall

note: the picture of the young lady with wild curly hair was done on a photo shoot where I was hired to do the models hair for a Coors light ad.

another note: I prided myself on being able to put locs into an updo without using any bobby pins,only an elastic band and lots of tucking,lol..resulting according to my clients in a very comfortable hairdo!

and another note: top pic is me when I had locs and a piercing..I had locs for 7 years then I decided it was time to let them go and I took them apart...YES you can take locs apart and it is a definite skill! lol

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Funky christmas



I'm loving our new gold christmas tree(a bargain at about 35.00 from Target)..we don't have a lot of ornaments...so it's rocking a minimalist vibe,lol....but I still love! it...I'll start collecting ornaments when the after xmas sales start...I would love to find some shiny black ornaments! ohhh la la!